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I am turning into my mother, and not in a good way. All the things I disliked about her, are happening to me. OK, I am not smoking, thank God! But I am becoming slothful and talking on the phone way too much.

Thursday evening, I was on the phone for 3 hours! I put the kids to bed with the phone attached to my ear (via headset) and it made me feel really guilty. SO Friday I thought about imposing some limits to being on the phone. OK, let’s see.. I can’t talk in the morning, we are getting ready for school. I can’t talk when they leave as I have to work and I found that I tend to mess up orders if I am on the phone while pulling them. I can talk at 4 pm when the boys come home then but what kinds of signals does that give them? I’m home for you but don’t talk to me as I am on the phone. So 5 pm until about 6 pm is OK but then it’s time for dinner. So 7 pm to 8 pm is OK and then it’s time for bath and bed. And I can’t talk after I get Andy to bed as it will keep him from falling asleep. Therefore, 2 hours a day is when I am available to talk on the phone. But do I want to?

I have a hard time upsetting people intentionally. (Though it seems I do it quite often.) How do I say I have to get off the off b/c I’ve had enough? Well, it’s been about 30 minutes. After an hour an a half today with a friend, I said I was going to go. She sounded disappointed and I hate that. Damn guilt again.