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I realized today that I have fallen into a funk. Could it be from being cooped up most of the summer with the boys? It’s too hot to do much of anything but swim and do errands. School starts in one week and I think we will all be a bit happier then. Though Ryan said I should sell the wii since he won’t have time to play it during the week.

I know Andy will be happier when he can go out and ride his bike. I told him he could ride during the summer, but he has never asked and, well, I’m not going to ask him if I can sit outside and sweat while he rides for 5 minutes then goes into the house and cool off for 10.

I did finally suck out the water clogging the condensation drain for the a/c. It’s been 78.4 degrees inside and at times feel a bitty chilly. OK, that is only since we had days when the indoor temp would reach 83+ before enough water would evaporate/drain and the a/c would start again.

I have been good about making a card or layout every day this month. I much prefer the cards.

And uninspired. At least as far as writing this blog. I have ideas, I even have 5 drafts started and saved, but nothing seems like a good idea.

Excuses. Add to that, the fact that Ryan thinks this computer is his. Occasionally he will go use his own, but mostly he uses the laptop. And sitting in my comfy chair with my laptop is where I like to blog. I try to keep the desktop computer for “work.”

Boring and mundane. It’s summer and we have out routine. I think I’ve already mentioned all of it so what is left to say?

I’ll try again tomorrow.

Letting go.

As a parent, you quickly realize you can’t do it all. Well, most of us can’t. So you pick your battles, your decide what is important. Going to the Christmas Concert is probably more important that washing the floors. Me being who I am, tends to go in the extreme. So I let a lot go, and go and go.

Not too long ago, I was pretty obsessive about the way I did my laundry. And please, do not even try to fold the clothes, you can’t do it the way I want it done and I will just have to do it over. And I will be upset about it.

Then Gail got sick again. I got a twitch in my eye. It only stopped when I slept. I knew I needed help. The doctor prescribed effexor, an anti-depressant and anti-anxiety medicine. Sometimes I think it has done too good of a job with anxiety. I just don’t seem to care enough about the little stuff. Or is that the depression kicking? Either way, I feel like I am letting go a bit too much. Time to take back the reins so to speak.

Hanging on

Where do I start? I am overwhelmed by all that needs to be done so I put my blinders on and ignore what I can. (What’s with the horse metaphors?) Last Monday, I signed up on a whim for Controlling the Clutter online class. I got my assignment for week 1 but have yet to do anything. Lots of excuses, as always.

I did come to the conclusion that I have to rework my schedule during the summer. The boys love schedules, so we plan to go swimming on Mondays and Thursdays. I have decided that these will be my “days off” from work. I worked yesterday and today now I don’t have to worry so much about tomorrow. And maybe if I can then use my days off and work around the house like any regular working person, I might get some things accomplished, such as clearing the clutter.

As they say is AA,

progress, not perfection

Getting back to what matters.

I jump around from hobby to hobby; from interest to interest. When we were going through with diagnosing and getting treatment for the boys, I read a lot about autism and related disorders. I am not sure if my interest waned or that I just burned out on reading nothing but autism. Anyway, I am trying to get back into what is going on with current thoughts about autism. I read some blogs on regular basis. Some are by parents with children who have autism, some are from people who autism.

Today, I read a post from a woman who has autism. She has difficulty with speech but is very good with the written word. She reminds us “normal” people to be patient when asking questions of autistics as they need extra time to process the information. Repeating the question, asking more questions before you get an answer only adds to the problem. First of all, make sure you have the person’s attention before you ask a question.

In other things that matter. I have been very bad about getting birthday cards out. Today is Charlie’s 53rd birthday Happy Birthday Charlie!

I really need to make some cards.

I ran out of tea. Well, brewed tea. I just made a pot of decaf and a pot of full leaded but they are cooling in the fridge. I could go out and get some from Arby’s or Wendy’s or McDonald’s or even Chick Fil A. They aren’t too far from my house. And Hank is here to stay with the boys should they choose to stay home. But I am lazy. Or maybe I am thinking I can drink, gasp, water until the tea cools.

On another rant. The boys are bored. Andy is feeling better but still coughing. Ryan so needs routine and attention and things to do. I will be very glad for Monday when they go back to school.